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"There's far
Too many pressures in reality
With dealing with the pain
The stress and poverty
And i gotta be myself because
There's nobody else for me"
There is no one to depend on, no one to save me or even with whom to pretend I am safe. There is just me and reality and as we know reality is a bitch. I have only myself and my meager and ineffective coping abilities. So I dream, I read, and I write. I take another step hoping that this one will be my final. That good or bad it will finally be over and I can rest and let it all go.
I've lost faith, beliving in "their" reality and in doing so I slowly lose myself. Even as I struggle to achieve some semblance of happiness. Perhaps a cabin in the mountains, a warm crackling fire and the distant sound of water as it meanders down the mountainside. The warmth of the sun as it gently kisses my body, laying on a furry white rug with the gentle smell of honeysuckle and stargazer lillies teasing my nose. I am alone, but content. safe from any and all that would cause me harm.
I rest.
Too many pressures in reality
With dealing with the pain
The stress and poverty
And i gotta be myself because
There's nobody else for me"
There is no one to depend on, no one to save me or even with whom to pretend I am safe. There is just me and reality and as we know reality is a bitch. I have only myself and my meager and ineffective coping abilities. So I dream, I read, and I write. I take another step hoping that this one will be my final. That good or bad it will finally be over and I can rest and let it all go.
I've lost faith, beliving in "their" reality and in doing so I slowly lose myself. Even as I struggle to achieve some semblance of happiness. Perhaps a cabin in the mountains, a warm crackling fire and the distant sound of water as it meanders down the mountainside. The warmth of the sun as it gently kisses my body, laying on a furry white rug with the gentle smell of honeysuckle and stargazer lillies teasing my nose. I am alone, but content. safe from any and all that would cause me harm.
I rest.
Life Becomes Her
Its been a while since I've been here. I've been focusing on trying to get whole of my depression. That has turned into figuring out all the pieces of that:agoraphobia, PTSD, borderline personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and major depression reoccurring. Being able to break it down has been helpfull.
On the creative side I've been a sloth. I started a sculpture. I've been working on story ideas. I'm trying to decide how much "alternate universe" is too much "au". I think I've settled a bit on that which means I've two stories bouncing in my head.
I've been lonley but my desire has been to get into nature. There isn't alot o
Holy Wow
I can't believe I got a DD! I'm going to have to properly respond to people who commented. However I wanted to give out a great big thank you.
So much.
Hugs
San Mateo in one week!
I can't believe it! right around the corner! I'll be having my reassignment surgery in a week and a half! Holy oh my god! i'm so stoked...and nervous and excited and freaked. I've never even had to go to the emergency room at a hospital before and now i'll be bedbound in one for three days! I think i might go bored out of my mind lol
in preparation of my trip I've updated my updates so that I wont receive any deviant updates. if you write and/or draw something you'd like me to look at send me a message!
Blessings to you and yours!
always
Mikaela
San Francisco Here I COME!
March 7th 2012 is the day i'm scheduled for my gender reassignment surgery!
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